Sons of Anarchy

That Was Then, This Is Now – Chapter 20

Harley had woken up around 5am. She packed bags for the three of them knowing Kozik wouldn’t have time later on. She thought about waking Belle decided to let her get some more sleep while she loaded the truck. She wrapped all the gifts including one special one for Kozik. They were going to enjoy this Christmas. Their first Christmas as a family. She’d made sure of it.

The front door opened and in came Gemma followed by Tara carrying a sleeping Abel and Lyla with Ryder, Kenny, and Ellie. The kids were still rubbing their eyes with sleep so Harley motioned the women to take Abel into Belle’s room and Lyla’s kids into the guest room since they were bigger and needed a bigger bed. As the two younger Old Ladies did that, Gemma and Harley walked out to the cars, loading everything into the bed of Harley’s truck. The got the Christmas tree on their along with the boxes and bags of decorations and a huge bag full of presents.

With Christmas being the next day, they needed to make sure they had everything set up from the bedrooms to the front of the house to the living room along with preparing a huge meal since this would be their first family dinner since everything had gone down. Everything needed to be perfect. After the women had their coffee, Harley threw her duffel bags in the truck along with Gemma’s bags as well since the older woman would be riding with her. Tara and Lyla would ride in one car with Lyla’s kids while Gemma and Harley would ride with the babies.

The mothers made their way upstairs to grab the kids. Harley dressing Isabelle in her warm pink juicy couture sweatsuit with her Ugg boots so she wouldn’t get sick in the cold weather in Washington. She gave the still sleepy baby to Gemma so she could fasten her in the car seat while Harley got changed. Throwing on a white shirt with black leggings and her over the knee black boots, she put on a light grey oversized cardigan and black oversized scarf letting her long blonde hair down in loose waves. She made her way over to the bed kneeling onto it as she gave Kozik a kiss. He sleepily kissed her back, not opening his eyes and turned over. She smiled to herself knowing how special this would be to both of them.

After whispering an I love you in his ear, she made her way downstairs to the cars. Tara had already fastened Abel’s car seat in next to Belle’s and Gemma had made them all snacks for the road. Double checking to make sure they had everything, the woman took off on the long drive.


Kozik’s phone ringing, woke him up. Grabbing it from his nightstand, he rubbed his eyes, answering the phone. “Ay brother, we got a delivery comin’ to the warehouse, be there in 30.” Jax’s voice came through the phone.

“Yeah” He said with a yawn. “Be right there.” He hung up the phone and got up off the bed slowly. The house felt so empty without his girls but knowing they were getting everything ready at the cabin just made him want to get this day over with so he could be with them again. He knew Harley had taken all the presents with her but he rummaged through his drawers to find the one present she didn’t take. Opening the little box he smiled to himself. This was something he should have done years ago but he wasn’t in the right mind for that. He shoved the box in his pant pocket as he got dressed and headed out the door to meet Jax and Chibs at the warehouse.


As he pulled his bike in he saw them waiting around examining the supply they already had. He joined them checking out the boxes and doing another count before the three headed back out to the bikes to have a smoke.


“How you feelin’ about tomorrow” Chibs asked looking at Kozik.

“I was up all night thinkin’ about it brother. It still seems so surreal how everything happened this year. How she took me back and how I get to be with my daughter everyday. I seriously never thought we’d end up like this.” Kozik blew out the smoke looking between a nodding Jax and Koz.

“You got the box? That’s the one you wanted right?” Jax asked as he leaned back on his bike.

“Yeah man, thanks for doing that.” Koz nodded.

“It’s about goddamn time, don’ t you think?” Chibs spoke up again.

Kozik laughed and shrugged his shoulders. “It’s all about timin’ brother.”

The delivery came in shortly after and the rest of the men came from the clubhouse to join them. They’d head over to the cabin as soon as they were done with this. As much as they wanted to rush, they carefully counted the new stock before putting it away.


After the long drive, the women immediately went to work putting everything inside. It was freezing but after lighting the fireplace and turning the heat on things were starting to warm up. The kids were allowed to play in the snow outside so they could stay out of the way. Ellie was put in charge of watching them as she was the oldest. Harley smiled as she stopped for a moment to watch all the kids having fun. Her hand flew to her stomach and her smile grew knowing there would be two more additions added to those wonderful kids.

She went inside bringing in the last of the bags. Gemma was in the kitchen cooking while Tara was setting up Garland and decoration throughout the wooden cabin. Harley went upstairs to join Lyla in setting up the bedrooms for everyone. The tree was going to be last so they could all decorate it together. Have 4 heads of households in one house, everyone wanted to join in. Christmas music and the smell of amazing food filled the home. Everyone actually getting into the spirit for the first time in a long time.

Harley put the sheets on the bed and sat down for a minute as she got lightheaded. She put a hand on her stomach, rubbing it softly. She was actually starting to remember what pregnancy was like. She laughed to herself before getting up to finished the bed.

Lyla walked in to see if she needed any help but noticed Harley’s usually tanned skin looking pale. “You alright sweetie?” She walked over to her friend.


Harley smiled at the taller blonde and nodded. “Yeah, babe. Better than I’ve been in a long time.”

Lyla looked at her surprisingly happy friend with confusion. “Anything I should know about?”

“Not until tomorrow.” Harley nudged her friend as they went downstairs to join Tara and Gemma. “ Food smells great Gem.”

Gemma smiled and wiped her hands with a towel. “Bedrooms all done?”

“Yup, washed and sheeted.” Lyla nodded walking into the kitchen taking a cookie that Gemma just finished baking.


Gemma slapped the girls hand away and motioned no with her finger. “Those are for later! Go set the table, Jax called to say they’re on their way.”


Harley and Lyla nodded grabbing the tablecloth along with plates and forks to set the long dining room table. “Oh, bring the kids inside. They need to wash up and change before they get sick.” Harley told Lyla while they did the table. Lyla nodded as Harley finished up before walking to the living room with Tara.

“This place looks amazin’ darlin’.” Harley spoke up noticing the lights and garland everywhere along with wreaths on every door.

“Good! It’s about time we have a real Christmas” Tara put her hands on her hips looking around the room at the decoration.

“Ready for the tree?” Harley motioned to the tree with her finger as she walked over to it.

“Gemma, ready for the tree?” Tara spoke louder so the other woman heard them.

“Be right there!” She yelled back as she pulled the ham out of the oven.

Lyla walked in with the kids who were soaking wet at this point. Harley and Tara laughed before Tara looked at Ellie. “Ellie hun, can you give Belle and Abel a bath? Kenny and Ryder, go get changed and put the wet clothes on the heaters.” The kids all nodded and went upstairs while Lyla and Gemma joined the women to set up the tree.


Riding through the snow, the men finally made it to the cabin. They parked their bikes in a row behind the women’s cars before walking inside. The smell of food hit them immediately and the hungry bikers filed in. Isabelle ran up to her father in her red dress and white leggings with red sparkly shoes. He laughed and lifted her up into his arms. “Hey beautiful”

She smiled brightly and hugged her father. “Hi daddy!”

Kozik walked inside seeing the rest of the decorations around the house along with the full table. “Where’s mommy baby?”

Belle pointed upstairs before wiggling out of her fathers arms “Upstairs.” She took his hand leading him up the steps. Walking into the bedroom he saw Harley sliding on a loose red sweater that hung off her shoulder over her black leggings and boots. Red was definitely her color.

“Hey babe.” She smiled as she wrapped her arms around his neck leaning in kissing his lips softly.

He smiled into the kiss lifting her up in his arms holding her small figure close to him. “Hey beautiful.”

Belle sat on the bed watching her parents smiling. “Daddy Santa comin’ tonight!”

Kozik laughed as he put down Harley, “Yup so you have to get to bed after dinner so he can come.” He nodded as he pulled off his shirt putting on a dry one.

“Come on Baby Belle, lets let daddy get changed.” Harley held out her hand and Isabelle grabbed it walking down the stairs. She hugged and kissed all the men and they all took a seat at the table. Kozik came down to join everyone sitting next to Harley with Belle in between them.

“Dinner looks amazin’, Ma” Jax spoke up kissing his mother on the cheek.

“Thanks baby. Why don’t you say grace and we can dig in.” Gemma looked down at the table as everyone held hands for Jax to say grace.

After dinner, the kids went to play then to sleep while the adults still hung out by the table. The food was put away and the plates were washed. It was just time to unwind. The year had been a whirlwind of changes but everything seemed to end for the better.

Kozik wrapped an arm around Harley’s shoulder as they laughed at Tig and Juice telling a story about the one time Juice was supposed to sedate a dog but gave him crank instead and he ended up biting a hole in Tig’s ass. Kozik kissed her head as she took his free hand intertwining their fingers together.

Gemma watched the two and smiled. “Do you guys remember when Otto found out about Harley and Kozik?”

Tig clapped his hands as everyone burst into laughter. “He chased you around the lot with a shotgun, we all thought you were a dead man.”

Kozik threw a hand over his face laughing hard. “I never knew how fast that man could run until that night.”

Harley laughed “Poor man, he tried everything to keep us apart.”

Jax laughed and leaned forwards on his elbows. “Not even the threat of removing your patch scared you away from her.”

Kozik laughed again and locked eyes with Harley. “Sometimes you gotta lay your priorities on the line brother. When you know you know.”

Harley bit her lip as she blushed. The guys made gagging noises and everyone laughed but Harley caught a glimpse of jealously in Tara’s smile. She knew how much Tara tried to get Jax to leave but that cut was never coming off his back.

“Hell, do you guys remember when Harley got mad at Koz and she was the one chasing him around with the shotgun?” Bobby spoke up laughing again.


“That apple didn’t fall far from the tree.” Kozik shook his head laughing.

Gemma pretended to make a disapproving look as she spoke. “We locked you kids in the clubhouse to sort shit out and not even ten minutes later Clay went to check on you only to find you two fucking on top of a pool table with shit broken everywhere.”

Harley covered her face as everyone laughed again. “What can I say? No love story could ever make up for our story.” She smiled looking up at Kozik.


After everyone put the presents under the tree and went to bed, Kozik snuck downstairs to put the small box on the tree. He put his hands in his pockets looking at the tree and all the gifts. He’d never had a Christmas like this and he wanted to take in as much of this as he could.


Quietly going back to the bedroom, he saw Harley laying on her side with Isabelle curled in her arms. He smiled at the view and climbed in under the covers wrapping his arms around the girls as Isabelle moved closer snuggling against him. He lay awake for a little while longer just staring at the two most beautiful things he’d ever seen. They were his. His girls. He never thought he could love someone as much as he loved them.


Isabelle opened her eyes slowly and realized it was morning time. Squealing loudly with excitement she shook her two sleeping parents.

“Wake up! Santa came!!” She giggled as she jumped off the bed. Running out the door. Harley leaned up on her elbows watching the ball of energy move around. She laughed lightly as Kozik sat up rubbing the sleep from his eyes.

“Merry Christmas, darlin’” She smiled leaning in kissing his lips.

“Merry Christmas baby.” He kissed her back as they both got off the bed.


Harley wrapped a robe around herself and put on her fluffy slippers heading out the door to see Abel and Belle opening all the house doors to wake everyone up. She laughed and Kozik put an arm over her shoulder laughed as they headed down the stairs following the kids.

Kozik couldn’t describe the way he felt when Isabelle’s eyes lit up at all the gifts. This was his first Christmas with her and he wasn’t going to miss anything else. Everyone gathered around the tree opening gifts when Belle walked up to Harley who was sitting on Kozik’s lap on the sofa. The baby handed her a small box and smiled. “This has your name mommy!”

Kozik watched anxiously as Harley unwrapped the small box. Her jaw dropped and he lifted her off his lap and went down on one knee in front of her, opening the box to reveal a beautiful diamond ring. Everyone went silent and turned their attention to the two smiling with joy.

Harley’s hands flew to her mouth watching as Kozik got down on one knee. “Harley Ann Delaney, you’ve been by my side for too many years to count. You’ve held me down. You’ve lifted me up. You’ve given me a beautiful daughter and the most amazing family I could ever dream of. I know I messed up badly the first time around but I promise baby, If you say yes, I will spend the rest of my life being the best man possible for you and our family.” He looked up at her with hopeful eyes.


Harley’s eyes watered as she covered her mouth nodding eagerly. He stood up and hugged her tightly spinning her around as everyone cheered. He slid the ring on her finger and everyone came around to congratulate them.

Harley wiped her eyes and hugged back everyone before walking over to the tree picking up one more box. “I think Santa has a little something for you too.” She smiled handing him the box.

Kozik looked at her confused as he unwrapped it to find a scrapbook. He turned the pages to see photos from him and her when they were younger, to baby pictures of Isabelle, the ones of the three of them. When he got to the last page he felt his breath catch as he looked up at her amazed. The picture of the sonogram stunned him. Gemma leaned over his shoulder to peek and covered her mouth as she let out an excited yell. “How long have you known?!”

Harley and Kozik’s eyes were locked like they were the only two in the room. He got up and walked over to her lifting her up in his arms again kissing her deeply. She kissed him back as tears went down both their cheeks holding onto each other.


Gemma showed everyone the picture and they all cheered again. Raising their glasses of milk to the couple. Kozik finally put her down not wanting to let go. The smile on both their faces was full of so much joy and happiness it could never come close to being expressed. Everyone hugged them again, the guys lifting Harley up in the air giving her a tight hug.

Isabelle looked confused and Kozik lifted her up in his arms and walking over in front of Harley. “You’re going to have a brother or sister babygirl.” He smiled down at his daughters excited laugh. She reached her arms out hugging both parents at once as they wrapped their arms around her and each other laughing.

Harley’s eyes locked with Kozik’s again. “I love you Herman Kozik.” She whispered.

“I love you Harley Kozik” He whispered back.



5 thoughts on “That Was Then, This Is Now – Chapter 20

    1. Well, so this is a little complicated. When i finished this story on fanfiction.net, i asked everyone if they wanted a prequel and a sequel and they did but with Jax as the main charater instead of Kozik.

      Young Wild Souls is actually the prequel to That Was Then, This Is Now.

      That story will also be rewritten with Jax as the main character. Of course there will be changes but its what people voted on.

      1. Hi love! Of course I’ll update my other stories as well! I’ve just been so engulfed in writing this one that I haven’t had much time to focus on the others. I’ll update soon I promise!

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